Yesterday I realized what kind of mold I am taught that I am supposed to fit into, or one that maybe just I myself believe I have to fit into. And I also realized I still care about what other people think, unfortunately. Maybe if I didn’t spend so much time wishing I were someone else, or that I had someone else’s life, or looked different, or didn’t strive and try so hard to have what other people have I wouldn’t be in this mess. I wish I didn’t care what other people thought and I wish there was no picture in my head already of what my relationship should look like because of other peoples relationships. Maybe I’m just lonely and desperate. But how does any of this make me any less or more of a valuable person. I feel like I am less valuable because I cannot hold a relationship. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I last with anyone? Why can I never have anyone I want? Why am I not in a 3 and a half year long relationship like I know I should’ve been from the start huh? Why am I not as pretty or as thin as other girls. Why is my personality so obnoxious and unattractive to be around? Why am I so afraid of what other people will think. Why do I need someone who is taller and older than me? I like to feel protected and taken care of because I take care of everyone else I guess. But I just don’t know. I feel super shallow for my thoughts on my whole situation and honestly if anyone reads this I’m sorry that it doesn’t make sense. I’m leaving a lot out because I’m just ranting trying to figure out what’s going through my head. I think life is just in another shift change and I have no idea what I’m supposed to do about it.
“Linger” by The Cranberries
“And I’m in so deep, you know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger”
-41% of people believe that self-harm is selfish.
-55% of people believe that it is stupid.
-43% of people know someone that has self-harmed.
1 in 10 people have harmed themselves by the age of 16.
Self-harm does not make you suicidal.
It does not make you emo.
It is simply a way that many use to rid themselves of stress or pain or whatever it may be.
Over 3 million people in the US have self-harmed or still do.
Cutting is not just a girl’s disorder.
Anyone can do it.
Males, females, and persons that don’t fit into the gender binary.
And it is not just teens, either.
Both Princess Diana and Johnny Depp have gone through it.
The person who always seems “so happy” could be victim to it.
Anyone.
There are other forms of self-harm besides cutting or mutilation.
Some people don’t realize they’re doing it.
Some people don’t think it’s wrong.
Some people become addicted.
People don’t hide their cuts or marks hoping someone will find them
…unless they actually want help to get better.
It’s often hidden because they’re afraid of someone seeing.
An orange ribbon is used as a self-harm awareness symbol.
Those suffering from it..
…have been through it
…or support it
often wear one.
You do not have to have gone through anything like this to support it.
Sometimes all people want to know is that they’re not alone.
Don’t judge someone based on the marks they have on their arms.
You don’t know what they’ve been through.
Rather, be proud of them for making through it.
Life can be a bitch.
